Miracle... i never think i will get marry and has my own family. i am a mother at 26. i never think roey will be my husband and i am expecting a baby now. Blessing from God. When i was young, my hope is to be going to war countries to help the victims. My ambition is to be a nurse. But now i am married. Become a nurse in my own country fulfill my dreams. Sometimes i did feel stress when i work as nurse. But meanwhile i feel satisfaction. i am happy when i see patients were healed. i feel satisfied when patient remember me due to my nursing care. i smile when i see my patient smile. Will all these stopped when he is bring to the world? During beginning of my pregnancy... i doubt... i upset.. why God sent him at this time? But when i saw him growing days by days in my tummy.. i saw miracles. i started to appreciate God blessing to me. i faced patients with infertility. i saw their hopes. Deep in my heart.. i am pregnant and i does not appreciate. i am so covered with the earthly things. He is the unconditional loves God sent to me and roey. Boy.. mommy wants to say sorry for every hard feelings arise upon your presence. Mommy loves you!
Time flies.. i am 26 already. In
hospital, i saw people excited over new life, people getting sad over
aging/sickness/death. Some patient has their beloved ones at their
bedside when they are facing death. But some are not. They are alone.
Life is very short. Nowadays, some even get heart attack or stroke at
the age of 30+. We unable to predict our life. Only God knows it. We
really need to appreciate whoever, whatever around us.
i work as a nurse... but i never knew how it is feel when i am the one to be catheterized.. to be put on heplock.. to be inject at the buttock. i will keep saying to my patient.. it will hurt "a bit", like kena gigit semut. Some patient will shout before i touch them. Some will say:"nurse, never mind. It does not hurt at all." (although i poke him or her few times) Next two more days, i will be the patient. The nurse will tell me the same thing (i think so). 25 april 2012 (same date with my dad birthday), i choose my baby to be come out via cesarean. The feeling is so hard. i am telling myself to be courageous, not to be scared. But deep inside, i worry, excited. Finally.. after carry him for 9 months and 10 days, he is coming out. i am curious how he will be look like. Every year.. roey and i undergo BIG event. Last year, we were busy preparing our wedding. This year, we are busy preparing to receive new member in our house. Being pregnant made me think a lot. With God will, i hope i able to provide him a good cares.
